But we do not want to die

When Christ calls a man, He bids him come and die.
It may be a death like that of the first disciples
Who had to leave home and work to follow Him,
Or it may be a death like Luther’s,
Who had to leave the monastery and go out into the world.
But it is the same death every time—death in Jesus Christ,
The death of the old man at His call.
That is why the rich young man was so loath to follow Jesus,
For the cost of following was the death of his will.
In fact every command of Jesus is a call to die,
With all our affections and lusts.
But we do not want to die,
And therefore Jesus Christ and His call are necessarily our death and our life.
…..Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost of Discipleship